Wow, I've not been a very good blogger, huh? I often think of things to write but then I never get around to actually putting it down on "paper." I have been thinking I need to tell you what I do on a day-to-day basis and I will, but for now, I would like to share something else with you.
It has been a little bit of a rough month for us. We have been homesick. It kinda hit us at a weird time. Things have been going really good. God continues to reveal to us why we are here. We are building friendships. The kids are doing great. But, one day, Kevin and I both just looked at each other and admitted we were tired. Tired of being here, tired of being alone, tired of waiting...
It's hard. I don't want to sound like I'm just complaining, or that I'm just scribbling down a few words after having a bad day. I have so much to be thankful for, and I have to remind myself, that God is at work and that He hasn't left us no matter how we may feel. As I have learned, my feelings aren't always the best indicator of what is going on around me.
There is a passage in Luke that speaks to situations like ours. In chapter 18 Peter tells Jesus that they have left everything to follow him and Jesus replies with,"No one has left house or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the kingdom of God who will not receive it many more times in this time and in the age to come eternal life."
When I read this, I thought about how wonderful it is that He knows how I feel, how Kevin feels, and how my children feel. He knows exactly what we are going through.
I, we, hold onto to this verse, and I believe it's Him who keeps whispering to our hearts, "Don't give up."
I don't know why I feel impressed to share all of this with you. This is a little more than I would typically share with an audience I may or may not know. But I guess the reality is, that we all go through times where we feel so alone. If you are like me, you find yourself wondering, "Is this ever going to change?"
Kevin reminded me of something the other day. He told me, "Remember, when you were pregnant and in your nervousness to go through labor again, you would tell me to remind you that the pain wasn't going to last forever, it would be over and our baby would be here and it would be over." He said, "That's what I am thinking about all of this, one day, all of this is going to be worth it."
"Therefore we do not give up; even though our outer person is being destroyed, our inner person is being renewed day by day. For our momentary light affliction is producing for us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory. So we don't focus on what is seen, but what is unseen; for what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4:16-18
